you were the rebound that bounced right back at my face

Today I woke up with a nagging headache, yes, to the point that that headache woke me up. Maybe it was caused by one of the strangest dreams i had in months (that i remember) and the nightmare-ish (to me) conversation we had.

“I went out with someone.”

As i am writing this, I have the same reaction that I had when you told me this. The speechless,
confusing and mind numbing responses that are all at the same time yelled to me by my inner voices (it was such a long debate in my head) are swimming through my head.

But I think we have handled the situation pretty well. Now we know that we want different things
from each other and there is no middle to meet halfway.

There is a tinge of regret on my part, that wished i was ready to move on from him, when we
first met. That i wish i gave you the chance that you asked. I wish i gave you a fair fighting
chance against him.

I needed the time and i wasn’t just ready. And by the time that I was okay, you’ve moved on (or
moved back?)

Ours was a story of something that never will because of the bad timing and because whatever we are feeling for each other it’s just not -it-.

To you, it was not worth giving up the others. The irony is, i was ready to give up my
set of others. To hurt my pride even more, is that you’re the guy who wants to be in a relationship, not just with me.

I foolishly thought that it won’t hurt, but it did. I had to stop because I was starting to get
jealous of her and then them. What right do i have? And I don’t like the idea of me competing
with others for the attention that was once mine. It was and it was just isn’t.

I am not the person who’ll plead and wait for you, I just wanted to process my feelings.

I have too many lessons learned, one of which is that I have a limit when it comes to this emotional BS.

Now, I’ll have to get back to my life and hopefully, that someone with all this bad timing too and the -it- that we’re missing will walk into my life and all the time will just be in sync.

Yeah, I’m shocked too of how I, of all people, am just this foolishly hopeless romantic.

And yes, as we part ways, it was nice to meet you.

The Ultimatum: When September Ends

Dude, here’s the deal. You choose them or you choose me.

It’s just that I’m tired of investing so much on something that won’t grow or flourish into something.

So here’s the deal: All or nothing. If you choose the latter, there is no need to contact me anymore. Message clear and accepted.

—THE BUS AND THE FERRARI : remember when you told me, “that bus has left the station…” what i failed to tell you then (because I was too flattered, is that: there are many conveniences of a bus too. Yes, a Ferrari might look cool, it’s the perfect, hot, amazing, exciting, everyone-wants-to-have-it car, but a bus it’s more predictable, it’s something you can rely on most of the times, it can be pretty exciting to when you ride on a different route, and well you’ll wait for it no matter what, plus a bus is not too high maintenance

Let’s face it, driving a Ferrari once or twice is enough in a lifetime for some.

Truly,

The Ferrari